I was at a judaica store near my house and I was listening to an album at the listening station thinking I wish I could download this song. However, I'm not into the downloading for free from kazaa thing and so I shrugged it off my mind. Later on, I was looking at the Sameach Music Podcast just to listen to something and I saw a post with a link to the song I wanted to download. Which is nice because I didn't really expect it, it was just a thought.
Plus, since it was just a thought, I wasn't really wishing hard. There are other songs on that album also that I like and so if I want, I could just buy the album.
Don't you love when you get something you like that you didn't expect to. What worries me though is the cliche 'be careful what you wish for'. Sometimes I have thoughts that I totally didn't mean to think and I'm afraid that I might cause something to happen to others by mistake. And so I try to think of something positive for them. For example, I'm walking down the block and I see someone and then these scary thoughts come and so I stop the thoughts and try to wish for something good. It's like the yetzer hara is puting it in my head and my job is to conquer it.
On the upside, keeping myself occupied helps me to concentrate on other stuff. And also sitting and relaxing somewhere. And so Baruch Hashem there's that. Plus, I'm working on controlling bad thoughts before they fully materialize by immediatly stopping them when I feel them coming, and saying I wish nothing bad or quickly saying some positive words.